A little taste of my creativity

SHOW ME YOU’RE WAY

I’m sorry for the stupid things I’ve done…
And I’m asking for forgiveness
My words are chocking
Your time is coming
Show….me your way

Living in a world of smoke and ashes
Your words are milk and honey
True salvation

Time and faith
Show…me your way

Show me the way to find you
I’m ashamed of all I’ve done
Now I want nothing but you
Show me your way
Pull me near
Let me be with you
Cause i've got no hope of shelter
no one else can compare to you
Lord show me your way

LIES

But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.”

Telling a lie for me is like standing up in church and screaming that i'm a homosexuall . It's probably really annoying to most people but i find it really hard to tell a lie. I deffinitly don't want to burn in no lake made of fire and sulphur. i've touched a hot pot before and i know how it feels, the last thing i'd want is to have that feeling all over me for eternity.

The worst part of me not being able to lie is my facial expression durning my attemps. I blink continuosly, bite my lip and try to avoid eye contact. If i happen to get away with telling a lie, i get paranoid and image the consequences of my action and then end up exposing myself.

I know everyone hates people who listen to their consciences and can't help trying not to do what's wrong but honestly, is anything worth burning in hell. Forget what all the stupid rappers say, trust me you wouldn't want to be 'burning up'.

Apart from being unable to tell lies i really can't stand people who have the nerve to lie to me. If you stole my money, tell me, i'm not going to kill you, i'm just going to be more carefull when i'm around you and keep an eye on you and if your lieng because you think i might not like you for who you really are, i don't care who you are, i'm not gonna judge you, but i'm surely going to judge u when i find out that you lie to me.

What i hate more than liars are compulsive liars, like WINSHIE who i mentioned earliar, they would lie about anything, wether leaving or dead, thye would even go as far as creating events that never happend. I wander what part of hell that they would dwell in cause their lieng don pass sin.

Egoistic Pricks

Why are guys such egoistic pricks. They want respect but they never try to earn it. You crack a little tiny joke and suddenly they delieve that you have insulted them.



ME:Stop swearing at me, and i was gonna give your cd to graton records lol

PRICK: What's that suppose to mean

ME: Am i suppose to apologize or somehtng

PRICK: Even if you did i wouldn't accept it..i don't take those kind of insults lightly

ME: Deal with it

PRICK: I would do just that



Usually, i'd give a damn about suck people but if i did that to every prick who thought that he deserved to be adored and wanted everyone to bow down when he sneazed, i'd be waisting alot of time on unneccesary apologies.

TRUST?

The one thing i have learnt not to do is TRUST, i mean, i can trust God but not anyone else. Everyone i've ever trusted seems to have become incapable of living up to my expectations. Take for example WINSHIE (one of my psychotic friends that you would find out about later)

• Turned all my friends against me
• Became to emotionally attached to me
• Spread rumours about me
• Lied to the vice principal and most of the teachers in school that i was having sexual relationships with guys in school
• Started appearing in my nightmares
• Started stealing my property
• Fell inlove with me

At the end of our long friendship, she gave me a rabbit and named it after both of us saying ''The day we stop being friends is the day it will die''. It finally died and then a pastor had to be brought to pray for me because her love for me had lead her to i quote,'spiritually tieng me' lol.

It's really freaky how your closest friend turns out to be your worst enemy or a psychotic possessd girl who wants you all to herself.

I don't care who the hell a person claims to be, i'm not going to put my trust in them. You could trust a preacher to draw you nearer to God but if both of you stand in the rain, you're still capable of getting struck of lightening and what's that going to be called 'an act of God'.

The only person or thing that i trust can keep my secrets is my diary, it hasn't got a mouth so it wouldn't be telling anyone anything. Human beings are ill, selfish and heartles creatures who can only think about themselves and their well being, if put in a position were they have to make a choice between u and their comfort, be sure that they would toss your feelings away, like a dirty hanky.

Though noone is worth being trusted, the worst people to trust are girls, like WINSHIE, every girl, gets jelous. Girls might pretend to be close but they always feel competitive, they either want what you have or don't want you to have it all all. Take for example, your girlfriend tells you that she doesn't like your hair. It's not that she doesn't like your hair, it's that she wishes she could pull it out of your scalp and glue it to hers.

If you ever want to have a girl as your friend, make sure she has some boyish features, or better yet make sure she's a tom boy.

I WANT TO HAVE FUN!!

For years, i have dreamt about graduating and how i would be able to do whatever i wanted to. I CRAVED the taste of independence. Well hear it is and trust me it tastes like shit. eight days after my graduation and i'm still not allowed to walk outside the foor walls of my house without a complete explantion and permission.Today was even my friends party in his mothers hotel and my mum didn't even wait for me to finish asking if i should go before she slapped me with her words. It went like this

'Mummy could i go for X's par..'

'Party, X is throwing a party, X, that bad boy, I wonder what kind of party it is'

'It's just a party you know since we have graduated from secondary school and all'

'Where is this so called party that X is having going to be?'

'In his mothers hotel'

'Ta, i should let you go there so that you would come back crying about how they stole your bag or they would drug your drink and then lock you in a room'

I am sick and tired of not being allowed to go anywhere, i'm 16 years old and i haven't even entered a Taxi in naija before. Actually i think i have, i and my friend snuck out on her birthday and payed the taxi driver to take use up and down the street just for the thrill of it. Speaking from experience the worst part of being born into a comfortable family is being cursed with the joy and agony of dependancy.You are so bored with having things done for you that doing little things for yourself gives you thesame feeling taking drugs might. The first time i washed a bath some months ago, i was so elated that i called my friends to tell them about my joy.How am i suppose to have any fun at all when i'm stuck within the four walls of my compound.